4.07.2012

terror

We were in the old red house. Sun splashed through the curtains. Our daughter tiptoed as we huddled together. I shrieked into the phone.

Where is he!

Then we were in a desert town. We questioned a woman who wore her name on badge. She replied flatly, unaffected by our terror.

Where is he!

She had placed our son with a couple for a two-week stay. They had run to Arizona with him. We pleaded, but she would not promise his return. It had now been a month since we had seen our child.

Where is he!

I awoke, screaming.


I've been struggling to express the terror of the dream I had this morning. It's left me feeling uneasy and paranoid. Horrible. By happy coincidence it seems to jive with this week's 100 Word Song over at My Blog Can Beat Up Your Blog.

16 comments:

  1. It is normal for a mother to have anxiety dreams about her children - as horrible as they are, it seems to be part of the natural protective instinct. I hate the way they leave me feeling totally helpless.

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  2. Do you know how many dreams like this I've had? dozens. especially when I was going through my divorce and my then 2 year old being fought for between her mom and i.

    the terror is palpable. It is also so well written.

    I loved it.

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  3. The worst WORST kind of dream. Give me monsters, fires, falling, but missing children dreams? Much more terrifying.

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  4. this was actually a step beyond missing child dream, it was the government agency, the child protective agency that had taken him away and was refusing to allow us to have him back. and there was something about us that was wrong that started the whole thing, unexplained in the dream. so horrible! god, i'm STILL reeling from it. it was hard to explain all of that, in 100 interesting-to-read words.

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  5. Oh Marian, terrifying for sure....especially the thought of ever getting in the government's grip. Yikes. Hopefully no bad dreams tonight!!!!!

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  6. I read this earlier today, and can only now address it. This one is really good, though quite possibly my biggest fear. I heard your screams. I felt them.

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  7. :(
    i scream in my sleep pretty regularly, but i rarely remember any dreams, especially those.

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  8. That would have been a nightmare for me too. You captured that terror of losing a child.

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  9. thanks, tara. i think it was far more horrifying than i managed to portray!

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  10. gah, Nothing good there save the way you wrote it down.

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  11. All too real. I had horrible nightmares when I was pregnant and during the first many months of her life.

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  12. my son who went missing in the dream is eight now. SIGH.

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  13. OH GOD. Well, that just struck terror into *this* mom's heart, which means you did an awesome job. I'm sorry you had such a horrible dream, but I'm glad you were able to turn it into this! :-)

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