i write because

Oh, my lord, it is actually week *eight* of the Indie Ink weekly writing challenge! In the challenge, participants are randomly challenged by our peers with a writing prompt. 
I write because I have not the strength to speak with you directly 
His heart flipped and he sat right down, right there, and realized he was holding his breath and so he exhaled, whoosh.
and I need to be strong now, for myself. In conversation with you, I know I would falter. 
His eyes brimmed, as though he already knew what was to come next. 
What I have to say, to write, is just that important. 
No. Please, don't say it. His eyes searched the page, flitted across the screen. Please please no, ah please 
You know how important it is. You know. 
Yes, I know. I know oh please no I know, ah if you don't go oh I can change oh I can I will oh no oh no please I know how important it is to you please no please oh please don't go 
I have to tell you 
Oh please oh please baby please, oh don't go oh I can change oh ohhh no don't do it please don't go 
first, that I love you, like I have never loved another. 
But because I know you do not feel the same way about me 
Ohhh but I do baby I do I do you are my world oh you oh you are oh don't please don't do this oh no please don't leave what will I do without you? 
I am leaving. Don't follow me, don't try to save me. I am going to the ocean and that is that. By the time you read this, I will be free. 
I write because I do not want you to talk me out of it.
Please, don't save me. This is me saving myself. 
My prompt this week was from Flaming Nyx, who challenged me to address my writing. She said, write this: "I write because..."


  1. This is painful, heartbreaking, unsettling and chaotically beautiful.

  2. why do the best things always disappear?

  3. I didn't know goldfish could write goodbye letters.

  4. Nice take on the prompt.

    Love when you turn them on their ear. Love.

    And? Full of your trademark raw, free emotive writing. Another rousing success, my love!

  5. Marian! What a lovely and utterly heart-wrenching piece. I loved it. Also, there is no truer sentiment than this: "I write because I have not the strength to speak with you directly." You put this into words brilliantly!

  6. emotive? naw.
    thank you, lovely people. xoxo

  7. diamond in the rough, maybe? *blush*

  8. I love how you interspersed the letter with his thoughts. It's so trademark you, but it's different too. Different good. Different beautiful. I heart you.

  9. Nice take on the prompt, I really enjoyed it!

  10. Such an amazing twist on the prompt. I would have never imagined to do something like this.

  11. When I saw this prompt in the spreadsheet, I thought, "Yikes. Better her than me." You handled it very well. Brava!

  12. ha! thanks, pals. it's all about being hearted.

  13. I love to be surprised and your take on this challenge really surprised me. I would have expected something about how writing fulfills you personally or a narrative of some sort but this? This was an excellent creative take on that line. Loved it!

  14. I can't say anything that your other commenters haven't already said, but I'll leave my mark here, anyway =) Beautifully written.

  15. oh i love your smiley mark, sunshine.

  16. That was painfully beautiful. I've been, to a somewhat lesser degree, both that reader and that writer. I think you nailed both.

  17. aw, thanks. i'm glad it was to a lesser degree because to me, that's a suicide note.

  18. Oooh, it's almost like you can let me read into the end a happy ending in which she means she's going to that cute bungalow by the ocean and he knows where it is but because it's a gated community he can't get in and she's moving on to a beautiful new life but only because she didn't realize he did indeed love her as much as she loved him and....

    Oh, dear...

    So very well done! Bravo to you, Marian!

  19. oh! i take it back. i should have kept silent!
    anything could happen. he is gonna save her. he loves her!

  20. I didn't realize till I was done that I was holding my breath the entire time I was reading it. Man you sucked me in!

  21. hee. thank you for a nice compliment :)


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